Tell me your story: What do you dream about at night?

micahmrn:

Life Update: It is freaking THREE MONTHS AGO since I wrote something here. I am so terrible at keeping promises! I don’t understand why God would put up to someone so inconsistent like me lol HALLO everybody! Quick update y’all, my life is so well at work at the moment – my Supervisor is superb so as my colleagues and we’re all getting (and eating) along so well lol In terms of my personal life, there has been a huge emotional turmoil I am going through and I thank the Lord for giving me (as usual) a supernatural grace to live and let things go that is beyond my control but the greatest news is that I am now writing again using a pen and a paper and got back on track with my Bible-reading. It’s actually the highlight of the past few months. I will never hesitate to be in a nauseous position if that means I get to be closer to God lol 


Just to let you know, I dream all the time – yes, even if I am awake. As someone who aspires to be a creative writer, the imagination department of my brain is always active and I love dreaming. You get into that place where things are happening the way you have planned and imagined – from the house you wanted to built, the amount of cash in your wallet, the place where your family are living the life they should’ve be in since the beginning, the spouse you have drawn in your mind for the longest time you have waited and to see how you have bloomed despite of every challenges you have been in the present time. And after dreaming comes the dreading feeling of uncertainty if those will even happen or if God will grant all of these dreams we badly want to come true, and I am not going to talk about that tonight because I know all of you have a clue about that already.

What I want to let you know is the dream I currently have that sometimes really keeps me awake at night that I have to count hundreds of number just to get the sleep I’ve been waiting for to end the day.

  • Let go. To let go of the things that are not meant to be a part of my life anymore. I grip my duvet as I pray so hard to God to embrace the present and to not dwell in the past anymore. I badly want to take back the former things because it made me really happy even in a short period of time and it hurts to be left behind – clueless (again).
  • Remain. To remain in God no matter what happens. I get to understood the Israelites, you know? It’s so difficult to remain in God when things are going well and fine but when Egyptians oppresses them and Babylonians captured them as slaves, they have the audacity to run to God and remain in Him. I want to see myself in both picture – praising God in every season and in Spirit and in truth. 
  • Fly. To live my life somewhere and learn how to be on my own. It sounds so scary but at the same time liberating in a way that I won’t depend so much on my parents (they care too much, I can’t help it). And it means kicking myself out in my comfort zone but I don’t know, I want it. I am currently reading the third installment of Me Before You and I can see myself in the main character – she is now living the life she never thought she will be in. To live boldly and wear those stripy tights with pride. I want to see myself in that place for the next few years. I am not sure with the whole thing yet but I just know deep inside my heart, the desire is there.

Whether it’s a dream or dread, I hope that God will take everything that keeps you awake at night. You can freely rest on Him for His yoke is easy and His burden is light. Drop it all in His feet, He knows your heart and you are secured in His arms.

Feel free to share yours!

m i c a h m r n

Well not last night, but the night before that I dreamed that I met Willie Nelson. I thanked him for all of his years of music and admitted (much to his liking) that I had a clandestine fondness for country music thanks to the old time country musicians (like him)